ape kejadahnye kalau...

First of all, thanks and very grateful to ALLAH s.w.t for giving me an another chances to write something in this entry. In a moment I’ve got the idea to write something, then I will do it as soon as possible. To prevent it from go away and flying without wings. Today is Friday, 28 november 2008.

What happen to my family actually I called it ‘dugaanNya’. Why I said like that? I heard many story about them and almost of it is negative. Even doesn’t involve my father and mother,(actually the problems arises from other level of family) I felt upset. Why they do things make them suffer?! Don’t they think it themselves seem that they are all matured already? I not understood. totally not! someone juz hoping me myself to settle out this probs. But what can I do for them? I have my own responsibility and works here. Also my own probs bro! what the hell they want me to do? Juz talking and gives advise is not payable if they don’t make it real. So what for I throw away my saliva and voices?

Maybe those who don’t know the real probs is asking and making personal conclusion. Nevertheless, for everybody sake and dignity I juz story the out of my family business and problems overall. Even the problems occur since I was a child, but when I am growing and mature, I have to know everything. What happen to my grandparent and also to my aunt and to my cousins is totally upsetting me. Who am I to interfere their life and personal since my life is also full of story and mystery?

Then I don’t know what to do and juz hoping and hoping until when? I’m not so sure. But here I want to tell something that I think I should tell to them. Even I know that it is unbelievable to let my grandparent knows from reading this entry. Even my URL they does not know and how to shut down the computer they also never do that. However, who knows maybe somebody bring this to let them know how upset I am. Who knows if this entry flying to them without somebody tells them? Who knows if this entry coming into their dreams…

“I love my family and very hope to see them happy. Not just in this world but ever after. Who am I to handle this since we have ALLAH to settle it? But what He can do if we did not do it to let Him to help us”